Thank you, Darcy. Receiving has been, and it is still a work in progress, a really big issue for me and it took me a long time to realize it. I have very generous in-laws but for a long time, each financial help they gave us appeared to me - thanks my ego for that! - as a reminder of my faulty self not able to earn enough money to meet my family’s needs. So each time I said thank you, I meant thank you for reminding once again I’m not good enough!
After I started my gratitude journal, things began to shift as I noticed the problem and realized instead how lucky we were to be able to rely on such beautiful human beings. Yesterday, I opened my fridge which was full of the fruits and vegetables my in-laws buy us every week and I felt so grateful for that because, who cares where those come from, someone actually loves me enough to take care of me and my family and this is such a magnificent gesture! Lots of love.
Thank you, Darcy. Receiving has been, and it is still a work in progress, a really big issue for me and it took me a long time to realize it. I have very generous in-laws but for a long time, each financial help they gave us appeared to me - thanks my ego for that! - as a reminder of my faulty self not able to earn enough money to meet my family’s needs. So each time I said thank you, I meant thank you for reminding once again I’m not good enough!
After I started my gratitude journal, things began to shift as I noticed the problem and realized instead how lucky we were to be able to rely on such beautiful human beings. Yesterday, I opened my fridge which was full of the fruits and vegetables my in-laws buy us every week and I felt so grateful for that because, who cares where those come from, someone actually loves me enough to take care of me and my family and this is such a magnificent gesture! Lots of love.