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Holly's avatar

Feeling this now so much.

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Kat's avatar

This was a beautiful piece, thank you. You’ve said so much of what I’ve been experiencing.

I’ve been going through what I now can understand as an energetic shift since I turned 40. I know it’s cliche in a way, but 3 years later and the loss of my soul dogs of 15 years and other constants in my life has definitely shifted me into a transition that is very uncomfortable. But was inevitable. Time stands still for no one.

As you mentioned packing up your home and seeing other versions of yourself and the grief that comes with that, I too have felt that and it’s been a very powerful sense of longing for what used to be. We are also considering moving and it’s exciting to start something new, but there is such a sense of grief I wasn’t prepared for. It’s hard to know if it’s the right time or not.

It’s really an interesting shift that no one really talks about, or at least if they did when I was younger I didn’t understand or pay close enough attention to because I wasn’t here yet. I’m here now and I look back on older friends and relatives and think, they must have felt this too. You’re not alone. It’s just some chapters in life are so much harder to close than others, at least for me because they were a really joyful part of my story. And I know there can be more chapters that are just as joyful but it’s hard to envision them when you’re in the grief.

I hope this shift is getting smoother for you and your feet can land soon on solid ground. ✨

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